I started keeping a journal around the age of 12. I used to lay in bed at night and write in my journal almost every evening before I went to bed. I filled notebook, after notebook, after notebook. I kept up with this practice for almost 10 years until my (now ex-) husband decided to read my journal, wasn’t happy with something I wrote, and then proceeded to burn my journal and forbid me from writing anything anymore. Needless to say, it was not a happy marriage.
I am a writer. It’s what I do, and it’s who I am. So, for 10 long, miserable years, I was not allowed to be me. Luckily, I eventually escaped the marriage. Near the end, I decided to start writing again. I began to keep a secret journal, writing only when I could sneak it in, moving it from one hiding place to the next, knowing I’d catch hell if he found it. But I was tired of living a lie. I was tired of not being allowed to be me.
Anyway, I went back to school again, this time to pursue a masters of English with a concentration in writing. At school, everyone talks about writing their morning pages. Teachers, students, authors of our text books, all recommend getting up first thing in the morning and writing for at least 10 minutes before doing anything else. I don’t know how they do it.
I have tried and tried to write morning pages, I really have. But, I have a 5-year-old in the house, and he pretty much decides what time I get up in the morning. If I plan on getting up ten minutes early to write, he gets up 15 minutes early to make sure I’m too busy taking care of him. There’s just too much to do in the morning, and by the time I can sit down to write for 10 minutes, I’ve lost whatever it was I was thinking about when I woke up. I’ve forgotten whatever it was I was supposed to write down in my morning pages.
Last night I was thinking of all those notebooks I’d filled up when I was younger, and how I always wrote at bedtime. So I thought, “Why not write evening pages instead of morning pages?”
I mean, who says I can’t be just as productive at bedtime as all those other writers are first thing in the morning? I have a stack of notebooks that proves I can. As long as I’m writing every day, who cares if it’s in the morning hours or the evening? Will the readers of my All-American novel really care what time of day I wrote the words? I don’t think so.
- A Writer’s Notebook: poem from an old notebook (Retro #1) (snoekbrown.wordpress.com)
- Note 210 – You can’t put a price on a writer’s notebook (mywritingnotebook.wordpress.com)
- The Journal. (crittyjoy.com)
- Day One (pricerj.wordpress.com)
- Allegra Newman and 365 Things To Write About (journalingarts.wordpress.com)
- My Notebook Obsession (presentsofmind.wordpress.com)